Insane

I travel by day
Doing as they say
"Ask, sir, I may...
How I can I help you today?"

I'm over the edge
To numbness I pledge
I stay at the ledge
ready to jump down

I'm sick of this town,
of all the work and misery...
I'm sick of it now,
not after an year, or even three!

No this numbed me out,
I scream and I shout,
but no sound comes out,
no signal of my doubt...

I seem so calm and ready...
So mercifull and steady...
But inside my hand shakes,
Because I know the stakes...
And I want to crawl away,
and hug my teddy...

Because I'm not grown up,
I never had...
All they teach,
I've thrown up...
Makes me start feeling sad...

No, I'm still that kid,
you used to know...
I'm still the seed,
that refuses to grow...

I cannot keep going
On this wretched path
My mask is falling
I've wasted all wrath

And if they look,
deep in me...
I ask you friend,
what will they see?
The path of knowledge that I took?
Or the kid that wants to be free?

I must make this come to an end,
this fight, this pointless contend...
Am I an adult, grown and wise?
Am I a kid, in a good disguise?
Am I the cause or the reason of my demise?

I am one of the same,
In my own eyes...
I am insane...
Despite my tries...

I held myself back,
So you wouldn't think,
That I'm THAT off track...
That lower I did sink...

But here's the truth,
Clear and Exact!
I am Insane,
And that's the fact!